Saturday, July 4, 2009

Love. Ai. Amore.

I just need to vent a bit. :p

Apparently, a friend of mine was freaking hurt by someone.
I feel so bad for him cause i've been there, done that.
I just cried over it, throwed some things and just vent out all my negative energy.
It was indeed painful times. I remember how i kept thinking how stupid i was.
Now, i could only say ;
Let it go
Cry about it
Vent out all your anger
Cry about it (more)
Move on................i know...easier said than done.


Thursday, April 23, 2009

No Time For This

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Random rants....

It's lunch time! And hey, you wanna you go out with your bf/bffs/friends/family to grab something.

Then you pop the question,'Where do you(guys) want eat?'

Then at the same time, they'll ask you the same question 'Where do YOU wanna eat??'

Then you go on saying ' I'm asking YOU.'

Then they say ' Up to you la.'

Then you continue this meaningless conversation till you guys decided to stop when you see something on the way.

And that just wasted about 15-20 minutes of your life...


I get this situation almost every single day.
It is really that hard to make a decision?!

I'm gonna have to get dress now...



Thursday, March 19, 2009

They're gone....T.T

Sigh....they've gone home last night. *tears building*

*sob* We went to Paddy's for the last time to stock up some Macadamias and more souvenirs. They bought like 2 kg of Macadamias! I'm pretty sure my mom will finish it quickly.

My sis was hunting for a big and cheap wombat plush, which she finally didn't get... *sweat* She's obsessed with it! She requested that if i do go back before i start my Pattiserie course that i bring her a big one. *double sweat* (<.<)

Ugh! Lucky i don't wear makeup often! My eyes keep tearing up... *sob* I just feel sad...i can't explain why....*sob sob*

I'll leave now....

Wednesday, March 18, 2009

The Great Depression

They're going home tomorrow. Sigh.... I'm slightly sad, but i can't pinpoint why? Maybe just because they're family. It's such a important word. I dunno, everyone asking when i'm tying the knot. Truth is, i dun want to just yet.

Why?? I dunno. Do i need a piece of paper to certify our love for one another? Perhaps? I do have my doubts from time to time. I'm pretty sure there's no other guy out there who wants me right now. But i just dun understand it. Why must someone get marry to another after knowing that person more than a year or so?

I suddenly don't understand the point in marriage. Why get married? Isn't love enough? Somehow, whenever i see married couples, i always see them change.

Dating stage: Holding hands everywhere, a PDA from time to time, the chemical reaction is there, IT SPARKS!

After marriage: Front and back, sometimes don't even bother to answer calls from one another, kids...(Don't get me wrong, but i like kids as long they're not mine and i can return them.) You just see the separation right there. It's so obvious!

Sigh, i don't really like changes in relationships. I just feel very insecure to take the next step. I'm only turning 21 this year and just because i dated the same guy for 3 years doesn't mean i have to get married to him, RIGHT?

My mom is urging me to tie the knot. She was like 'Quickly, get registered. Wedding party can come much later.' I dun want that. I mean it's convenient but it's a once in a life time thing. How can you rush it? I dun want to do it just because Ben's planning to buy a car and house right here.(He's planning to stay in Sydney for at least another 3-5 years if he does get sponsorship from his head chef/company.)

I dun want to wait that long to move forward in my life. I want to travel as much as i can, i want to see Japan and Paris before i turn 25. There's so many things i want to do right now. I dun want to get stuck with marriage. It's static. I get bored fairly quickly,if i dun see any changes in them, i jump boat. I dun want to be unfair to Ben but i dun want to compromise my life.

I seriously don't know where am i heading right now. I have lost my sense of direction in life...I kept looking back at things i could have done but didn't with much sense of regret. I'm an example of epic failure. I really am...

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Arrived, Seen, Starting to NAG!

They're arrived. After waiting for me and Ben for 2 hours in the Airport.
(Had to meet Ben up at his workplace) Took a bus to UNSW then take 444 to International Terminal. FREAKING LONG!

Upon arrival, we went looking for a cab, then some shuttle bus guy offered $10 p/person. We took the offer, it was cheaper than the taxi anyway. So nvm.

Thank god they've only brought 2 big luggages. Poor Ben had to carry them up.
My hero (>w<)
Took them out to dinner in Punch Bowl,located in Chinatown. Ordered Hot N' sour soup, some roast duck and stir fried bean sprouts with rice. I L.O.V.E the hot n sour soup (>.<) The best so far in Sydney.
Then took a bus home to let them unpack.
Both luggages filled with clothing only..... as in for ME AND BEN...
My dear mom decided not to pack anything but underclothes for herself, that way she'll have to wear my new clothes till she leaves. I dun have to shop until next year or even maybe the next... *sweat*

My dear sis was carrying a set of Mahjong in her back pack, courtesy of my dear aunt(Sam's mom). I LOVE HER!! THANK YOU!! >W<

First outing day:
Went to Marigold, lvl 5 to have Dim Sum, FOR THE FIRST TIME, we didn't have to queue. Apparently no one eats or have Dim Sum at 10 A.M in the morning in Sydney.
Took a bus to Circular Quay, then take a ferry to Taronga Zoo. Walk until 5 p.m. A must see is the 'Red Panda'. It is freaking ADORABLE!!! (>W<)!!!
It's not a real panda. More similar to a raccoon. Except more CUTE! If anyone here plays Gaia Online, it looks very similar to the Tama's Basket EI. My sis bought a plushie. Go take a look!!

At night, my mom and bro stayed at home because they're want to go out. So me, Ben and my sis went out to the city. We went into my favorite place in Sydney. Capitol Square, lvl 2. TOY CENTER! WOHOO!! These toys are mostly imported from Japan and Taiwan. But most made in china :P However these toys are not usually sold in the shops. >w< So what did we do? Spent $90 on UFO machines, you know, they type with a claw which you control and grab toys?? ADDICTIVE PLACE. Trust me, you don't want to go in with your wallet full with money!

Total: 2 medium tofus (White ribbon Valentine edition and Brown Garden edition), 1 sleepy raccoon, 1 rilek kuma stuck in a donut, 1 white cat in red jumper(Space invader edition)and 1 green mochi green handphone holder.

Me and Ben have been a bit rusty with out skills. He wanted to win a Hello Kitty red bed pillow for us. It was so cute! (>w<) Too bad we had no luck with the machine(hit-7-to-win machine).

Second day(today):
Had breakfast at home, thanks to Mom on money-saving-while-on-holiday/torture-self-on-holiday scheme. Then took a bus downtown, we're going to the Sydney Aquarium. We Ben decided to take the longer way to get there because he wanted to show them the shopping mall there. Then he suddenly change his mind and wanted to visit the restaurants outside of the shopping mall in Darling Harbour.

First: It's very Sunny, like no wind and shit. Sweaty body is just icky!

Two: My bro DON'T do walks. I have to drag him everywhere. SERIOUSLY.

Three: I dun like people whining. *VERY SERIOUS*

Four: I do tend to abuse my power as an old sister from time to time where i see fit, such as drag and a hit-in-the-face, USUALLY my bro gets it a lot from me. BEWARE OF SUCH BEHAVIOUR.

Five: My dear dad paid RM1700 for each of them to come to Sydney for 1 week for holiday. My bro isn't very keen on walking, therefore making places to visit like Bondi beaches impossible because YOU HAVE TO USE YOUR LEGS. My mom would like to visit such places, but she tells me that she's sleepy and tired from deprive of sleep back in MALAYSIA thanks to watching too many rental series at night. Thanks a lot!

Six: Ben had cracked his head last night thinking where to take them and they just messed up his plans because they dun like to walk and is just too tired. He's not happy. AT ALL.

So you know what? We went to the Aquarium, i'm pretty sure my bro had the energy to walk the whole exhibition because he was RUNNING! And my mom just slept whenever i leave her alone when she see a blue bench on the side. I ended up draggin my mom thru the whole thing. Point at penguin and saying 'ooh!!! Penguins!!!' and 'Look! Look!! So nice!!' I'm basically tired. I really am.

At the end, at the souvenir shop, i was looking for a big Dugong toy for my sis, then i ask the clerk refilling the 'too-many squeeze-together-penguins'She told that 'They're out of stock and only coming back in April.' I was thinking to myself saying 'imagine how much business they'll lose for not restocking such a hot item' JUST PLAIN STUPID! My sis was sadden by that, ended up didn't getting anything.

My mom was wondering around the shop looking for items to buy ended up with a mommy koala hugging a baby koala. She was asking me, 'What do you think??' Big enough? Too small? I asked, 'for who?' She told me it was for my little cousin Shirley. A spoilt brat she is. I was like, 'A small one would be fine'. She's in Primary school, with more than enough toys, thanks to her mum spoiling her with whatever she wants. She said 'Haiya, buy for other people must be presentable' I was rolling my eyes, thinking 'If you've already decided, then why ask me in the first place?!

My bro had actually broke something yesterday in Taronga's Souvenir shop. Thank the lady that we didn't have to pay for it even though it's only $5.50. He wasn't as clumsy and rough in this shop. He kept suggesting the Aqua Cafe right outside the souvenir shop, the little smart-ass was hungry and just wanted to eat. We ended up buying him a meal set and a large fries to share. After eating, upon walking outside, back to Mr Sun. My bro just had to flip the brat/pain-the-ass switch on. I got angry and drag him into the Lindt cafe, telling him 'If you don't walk any faster you're not getting any chocolate!' He ran up the staircase as quick as he can!

We went in the shop, lucky, not a lot of people. Bought 3 hot dark chocolate. Yes! Hot because they do taste better than the cold chocolate they serve in Lindt's. FYI, buy take away hot chocolates in Lindt. If you eat-in, it's 2 dollars extra and you have to make it yourself. They'll serve you a jug of hot milk(poorly heated) and a petite sauce jug of melted hot chocolate. You'll to to stir into a cup to mix them together. It's disgusting and taste just bad. YUCK!

My mom and sis bought a few bars of the latest label, Petits Desserts at $9 for 2 bars of 140g each. They had planned to come back to get more before returning to Penang on Thursday night. Me and Ben laughed, knowing full well within that time, they'll finish all those bars before going home. Me, Ben and my sis all went out to Strathfield to find the bowling alley because they had a Pro shop which Ben wanted to go. We took a train, then took a bus transit to North Strathfield. End up walking 30 minutes knowning shit about the location of this bowling alley. They told us to find it on Parramatta rd, which is freaking long. We did however manage to walk there after a good search and exercise.

Upon reaching, we were attracted to the UFO chocolate machine. $2 per 5 play. Me and Ben are pros on these machines. All you need is 2 people to play and lots of $2 ^.~
We played for a bit, win some chocolates. Ben was dissapointed because he didn't get his bowling bag. They didn't have them in stock and they only open from Monday - Wednesday. Plain bullshit! We ended up playing 2 game of bowling. My sis was just warming the seats while i had my weekly practice. Ben was trying out his shoes, trying to worn them a bit.

After that, it was about 7 p.m, we're all hungry. We went to this Japanese Buffet IN Seven0Seven. Funny name but the food was good. The buffet for one person is $55, all you can eat. We order a portion of everything to try. Overall was good. The head chef is said to be from a 6 Star Hotel. However, we were dissappointed with the desserts. Green tea ice cream with mashed azuki beans. Ben found out that they just use vanilla ice cream and stir in the green tea powder. Not very authentic and just a poor job on folding in the green tea powder. It was raining to heavily when we were inside the restaurant, so we had to delay our journey home. We asked for directions to the nearest train station. Ended up, we were actually on 5 minutes walk away from the rail city transit bus station to the Bowling Alley. I was furious!

Anyway, we go home, bought some MCDs for my bro and mom as late dinner. Ben and my sis actually had space for more ice cream. An Oreo flurry and large sundae with hot fudge, seriously....UGH....

Now, i'm going to sleep. I'm planning to bring them to 'The Rock's Market and Paddy's tomorrow. Hopefully, they're not too tired to walk in Markets. Sigh.......

Nite nite. :)

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

They're coming !!!

In just a few hours........... house's a mess! Hopefully they won't mind sleeping in the living room...

Hopefully they didn't bring too much luagage...i dun want to die carrying luagages up 4 floors *sweat*

To do list:
1. Clean up mess...
2. Clean up more mess...
3. Meet at Ben at work...hopefully i get a free meal :P
4. Pick them up in the Airport....hopefully they'll know how to contact me and get a simcard in the airport....
5. Bring luagages up 4 floors <<<----- (I'm dreading this) *sweat*
6. I dunno what to do next......I wonder if they'll be hungry....*ponders*

Friday, February 27, 2009

Recession is everywhere!!!!!!

Sigh, i can't believe PS has hit recession. It's a freaking flash game! WTF?!
I saw a freaking Jello sold for 3 lips. Sigh......back then anybody couldn't have anything with a Jello. 
The Jester dolls are having a laugh, they're freaking worth 2 j/ls a piece. Some has the nerve to ask for rares like turkey food and toffee apples for them. They're still in the GMBS for godsakes! 
I hate this shit. Ugh.....please come back- Cloners, Cheater, Hackers!!! 
The market is dying without you guys!!!!!! guys must be seriously thinking wth am i talking about. 

PS- Pet Society (flash game on Facebook)
GMB- Gold Mystery Box
Jello- Something like an Angeling from Ragnorak
J/L- Juke/Lips worth 6666 /20k each pcs.

Friday, February 20, 2009


Yes, finally. A blog.
Seriously, what am i going to do with this??
Everyone has one. So, i thought to myself, why not create one as well.
So hopefully, i make use of this. 
Ciao. ;-p

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